Our granddaughter was here tonight and despite her presence I really did not have a resolve to listen to the match on the radio. I don't have pay TV to watch RL, which sometimes I guess is a blessing while other times I kick myself for not having it. But tonight I seriously was emotionless in regards to trying to listen or even go to the live score thingy's on some sites.
I ventured away from the box at around 2040 tonight and looked up the live scores on two sites. Frustrating waiting for updates but I had some encouragement a that point of time as was only down 12-4 still time for a win methinks. Then I see that Hayne had gone off injured, then I read where Tepai was injured, then King and I think well no 2 points tonight. Yep I see the penalty situation with our first at the 51st minute. Looks like the refs are doing their usual.
Full time and 14-4 is the score. How do I feel? I don't drink so Toohey's or any other wont do. To be honest I simply feel flat, in a sense emotionless. Am I disappointed or not? A definite yes to that, thing is I realise that I cannot do anything to resolve that disappointment, nor can I do anything that may help the team, coach and all the others who run onto the paddock and look after the players and all. After all living around 4 hours by car away from ANZ and Parramatta itself, with health up the spout I cannot drive that distance and sit in the lounge seating either and then drive home.
Public Transport doesn't help as the government in their know all wisdom have removed the old double deck trains off the Northern line and replaced them with more modern ones that for me to travel on, the pain in my back is so severe by the time we get near Woy Woy on the way home, I have to start on extra heavy pain killers for the trip down and back. So all I can do is sit back and wait for time in Nepean Hospital when a bed and the surgery ward is there for me, on the waiting list, of course then wait for the eels on 9.
One thing is that no way would I slit my wrists, secondly as a long time eels supporter and member under the old set up, I am not going to not support them, gee having watched and supported them through thick and thin, through competition wins and being at the SCG to see them win their first premiership, after also watching them as a season ticket holder win a few bits of wood as well.
For me the loss is something I do not like, especially 3 in a row and a very bad one at Lah Lah land, these are hiccups to me and in no way will I not support the eels into the future.
Sure, I have some views and have expressed them here on 1eyeed and elsewhere, but in doing so I don't see any benefit in laying the boot into them as many are willing to do, be that the players, be it the coach or any other person involved with the team. I certainly want to see them back in the winners seat and continue to do so into the future, and being perfectly honest, I see that will happen and happen sooner than later.
I read the measured response at the post match presser by Brad Arthur, measured very much so, and looking at Beau Scott next to him with head hanging low one could see the pain in him but I would also suggest BA is hurting big time, and he feels most likely let down by those whom he has a passion for as players.
I do not believe any lamblasting nor calls for his sacking will help matters, as I also believe he is the right person for the coach of this great club. I would suspect that there will be some forced changes for next weeks match, maybe through injuries, but maybe for a change in the team itself.
So, for me and I believe a lot of eels supporters will laugh me off in this but, that's their right, I wont be hurt, but I wont give up on the eels either. My team for over 40 years and the same for my late parents who also supported them for their life spans as well.
I sincerely hope that the same will happen with all you other disappointed and hurt supporters, the pains of loses will be a thing of the past when the wins come, and they will.
You may laugh now or maybe cry, but tomorrow will come, and another game next week.
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This team will break our hearts but unfortunately we just can't walk away from them
Thanks Offside. I now live at Maitland (Raworth) Appreciate the offer its still a distance to go. I went down to a game last year, at least I think it was last year with John Eel and met him at Tuggerah, as we lived in Wadalba at the time.
I wont walk away at least in the non physical sense, and will continue to support the eels as I have said in my post. I have woken this morning and still feeling flat, reading the injury list is hard to take although it may be a blessing in disguise as it could mean some new faces in the team.
The biggest recovery session this week could well be one that does not involve the players directly with a focus to the rest of this year and more importantly beyond.