So i decided myself to delete the post i had up in regards to changes for this week, reasons being is that i was for the first time getting annoyed with the comment section and from certain members with some comments i was starting to consider were referring to something in particular and then made me think of something personal that became upsetting to myself. I have been on this site since 2013, posting a few things here and there. But only recently in the last few years i started posting and commenting daily, the reason for that is i had my father to talk footy with 7 days a week and anything on my mind i would discuss with him, unfortnately here is not here anymore for me to vent to about Parramatta (he is more likely thanking god for that one) and since i cannot talk to him, i talk to you guys. What happened is the personal thing i will refer to.
Do not want sympathy or pity, nor do i begrudge those who annoyed me, felt it was better for me to not think about that post and move on as it was making me not enjoy being on this site. I use it as an escape from personal matters and if i cannot enjoy it then it makes matters worse for myself. Not saying everyone can't disagree with me, of course not or else i would be deleting 90% of my blogs. Just some things led to another and had me thinking what one certain comment meant and it made angry as it related back to something personal, i could have been way wrong but i did not want to take the risk of seeing if it was what i thought it meant, therefore i would have perhaps made a blog abusing people in regards to it and that is something i want to avoid. I am not saying it was directed at my personal issue as nobody knows therefore impossible to say anything directed at it but i led me to connect it whether fairly or unfairly and as i said i could have been way off on what i thought it was but it is how i felt and wanted to avoid the situation further. I know alot of people here deal with their own things, though they deal differently. Mine makes me a bit more sensitive so i apologise for that.
Again these people probably know who they are and i do not consider them any less than i did before, to me they are still fans with opinions and unless it gets personal or knocking myself with abuse or names i will resepect their opinion. When i create blogs, it is to get things off my mind, but also to get ideas, see if people think the same as me or if i am way of the mark, or even hear stories and experiences of the past. If any member in the past has felt i have ever been rude to it is not my intention and apologise, but if i recieve i reteliate even if 9/10 times hindsight fills me with regret for saying things i say.
There are some here who are extremly nice and comment on blogs that are respectful and some that downright shut down ideas, but that is what is great about this the sharing of ideas. So many times i have had a view point where my mind says one thing then someone would say something completely different and i think "Actually they are right", and other times i stand by my points regardless of what is said.
Again, not a sympathy blog or a feel sorry for me or people are being mean to me blog, simply stating it is gone and if anyone wondered i simply explained the reasoning, certain comment i took a certain way, if it was the way i thought it meant then it hit me on a personal level of my past where something happened and did not want to see that and start abusing people or anything like that. Simply thought it was better to get rid of it and move on. i am sorry if anyone in that blog i offended by the way, my blogs are for discussion maybe some banter and opinions, there is nothing i hate more than seeing people abused or laughed at in my blogs as that is not what they are written for even, even if i have fallen victim to saying something i shouldn't have, my blogs are made for me to look at, reflect and discuss with others.
I will not mention names or what was said or what i am referring to as this is not the place for that and i want to get back to talking footy, and no matter what was said prior in that blog everyone here i will treat with respect so in the future if you comment on my blog with your opinion i will reply back with what i think about the opinion not you as a person.
Again for the third time not looking for positive messages and messages of support or anything, just a simple explanation (i know i didn't need one) and move onto what i love on this site, if anyone though has issues with myself or wants to clarify anything i am happy to discuss anything that is on your mind. Just want to enjoy being here again, does not mean you cannot call me out for opinion go for it as it makes it fun for me again.
Now let's get back to discussion, i will more likely write a new blog tomorrow anyway LOL.
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Ok, feel much better getting that off my chest, been contemplating it for a few hours now i am good to get back into, even if some of you are dreading my 1000 word essays.
LB the key is not to expect everyone to agree with you on 1EE... post what you like but it's all opinions we have no idea what goes on in the club, coaches and team environment.... don't stress it's all good
As i mentioned NBE, i don't mind disagreeing, and the thing that made me annoyed actually was not disagreeing haha. But it was more of stopping myself from saying something i shouldn't have due to taking something to wrong way, as mentioned above.
I didn't want to delete the blog and people might say "can't handle negative comments" or something like that, probably not but i at least wanted to explain my reasoning, it was more so my actions that i wanted to avoid.
Though we disagree a bit so im used to people disagreeing with me when i see you pop up lol.
https://youtu.be/wKjxFJfcrcA
Damn bro a 1 am blog.
Don't let the site get to you. We've all been through it. The internet has several dark holes you don't want to see.
Lol bit harsh on the video haha, yeah i was up this late doing work stuff anyway and just wrote it, just got my second COVID jab (not flexing) and it has been knocking me around in sleeping so i was up and alert LOL
Don't mind the vid, was just joking. Keep those blogs coming.
LB I think it is great to personalise your spirit the way you have. I like this platform sometimes to use it as a diary about where your head is at at this time of your history. Some like to use the site to release anger and frustration. That is Okay if it helps release it and maybe take something positive out of it from others who can show a different path in how they view things. Being open to relieve hurts is positive if you have the ability to doubt your view of the world and move to a better place. So many divisive issues around today. Finding Truths? can be difficult.
Yes I am the Elephant in the room, don't worry I have been here before.
OK LB, firstly you should have done what I did and go to bed early, that's why I am posting now. Its a problem with age, mine not yours.
I started by saying there is a lesson for you and EA in your opinion pieces based or implied upon as "experience".
I have had a lot of experience with young sports people as a coach and an administrator. In no way do I question your right to an opinion but I believe that you were starting to believe you were right in everything you were saying, as an 18 year old who has never played the game I found this difficult and it was the lesson I implied.
I then thought about this blog and what you were trying to say, I said to myself, "what if he is a quad/paraplegic" I would look pretty hollow in criticising you of never having played. So I apologise now for any assumptive excuses in my criticism.
Now this has been said, I am sure we will be good friends and I will comment more objectively on your writings in the future.
Well played in the totality of handling this! I look forward to more of your "qualified" opinions.
PS Don't worry about long drawn out blogs, other than most won't read past the first two paragraphs. In days gone by my critics have said (and still do I am sure) that if you are having trouble getting to sleep, just read a "Poppa" blog, you will be counting sheep before you know it! LOL
Poppa, the thing about these blogs sites are we are behind a keyboard and we do not know each other, what we look like, gender, age etc. But i have nothing against you and never did, things get heated and for not reason shall you apologise for what was said, i will say i am young, hitting 26 in a few years, in the future poppa if there is anything you feel you shall mention in regard to knowing something behind the scenes i would love for you to tell myself, it was not the fact of saying i didn't play, i was annoyed that i was defending a played that i "thought" you liked and turns out you don't really AHHAAHAH, so yeah i carried on for nothing.
You could say my father was someone who could change my views on a lot of things, as you poppa he was involved in alot of junior coaching and played (not at any high level). The last thing i wanted to do was to say something to you that was out of line and uncalled for because i took it a way that was not even relevant, and i really believe you wouldn't of done that but i would have that is why i moved on from the blog. I mentioned someone above as the reason for deletion but it was not the main reason, it was myself that needed to avoid the situation that was going to say something.
But Poppa does not mean you have to agree with my opinions of cause, i just have to get more thickskinned in my approach, I hope though in future blogs yourself and i can agree on something or if we don't explain why and agree to disagree, if not then well you will have to call me out for being a "child" hahaha.
I do aplogise for anything i said, i appreciate the advice and will take it onboard myself.
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