Cautious Optimism: My years as an Eels fan

There’s a popular saying: Once bitten, twice shy. Well, for an Eels fan try 200 times bitten, 400 times shy.

For those lucky enough to experience the halcyon days of the 1980s where the Eels were kings for three consecutive years and then gave legends Ray Price and Michael Cronin the perfect send-off, that may not be entirely true.

They’ve still got those memories, those feelings, those experiences.

For people like me who were either too young to experience the 80s or were born long after the last of those legends retired, it always seems like that feeling is just out of reach. It’s an imagined fantasy – an Eels captain lifting the trophy on grand final day, the parade through Parramatta, those t-shirts emblazoned with “PREMIERS” – I can half feel it, but it’s not real.

The teams I support in other codes have given me a taste. The Green Bay Packers won Super Bowl XLV. Liverpool only last year won the Champions League, and they collected their first League title in 30 years this season. So I’ve had that feeling of seeing a trophy being won.

But it’s not Parramatta. It’s not the side I was born into and the team I grew up supporting on the Brett Kenny Terrace at Parramatta Stadium.

1200px-parramatta_stadium_new_scoreboard.jpg?w=1024

My grandfather told me of the great Ken Thornett. The greatest player he ever did see. He handed me tapes of Eels grand finals. Only the ones we won, I’m pretty sure he taped over ‘76 and ‘77.

He spoke of the old dirt track at Cumberland Oval. Of the rickety wooden seating.

Pa passed last year. I didn’t get to celebrate that Premiership with him. The last game he went to? Our thrashing of the Tigers at the new stadium. Until the day he died he spoke about Parramatta.

About his hope that Moses would be the halfback we needed, how young Dylan Brown was so calm. And what about that Sivo fella? He’d give Eric Grothe Senior a run for his money.

My dad’s still here, still desperate to see another Premiership. We still go to the games together. Just like we did when Parramatta Stadium had the southern hill. My son will join us one day. Three generations together to watch Parramatta once again.

We drove mum mad when I was younger. In another life dad would’ve been a football coach.

I grew up in the Brian Smith era. An era of close but no cigar. The late 90s we became contenders again. Premiership heavyweights some would say. Top four, finals, preliminary finals, we’d have probably made a grand final if it weren’t for those damn Broncos.

The less said about the 1998 preliminary final the better. The name Paul Carige still brings out the thousand yard stare from Eels fans.

2001 came. The year of the baby Eels. Jason Taylor pulling the strings. The entertainers. Statistically the greatest side the NRL has ever seen and will likely ever see.

Except on the one day it mattered. For 40 minutes their minds weren’t on the pitch and it was all the Ben Kennedy and Andrew Johns-led Newcastle Knights needed.

Hopes dashed, dreams over. 

We lost the unlosable.

For the years that followed, we were neither here nor there. A couple of years in the wilderness. We were seemingly going to try every half that was available.

Barely 10 years since his retirement and Peter Sterling’s shadow was already long.

Then 2005 came. Another chance. 

A different side to the 2001 team. The baby Eels had grown, were becoming legends. Timana Tahu, a member of the Newcastle 2001 side had joined, Mark Riddell and PJ Marsh shared the hooking duties, a barnstorming prop by the name of Fuifui Moimoi was unveiled.

And the feather in the cap was the arrival of the uber talented Tim Smith. He enjoyed the most successful rookie year for a half the NRL had and will probably ever see. 40 try assists. It hasn’t been matched since.

Darren Lockyer, Cooper Cronk, Jonathan Thurston, Andrew Johns, Allan Langer. All legendary halves. None of them provided 40 try assists in a season.

2005 wasn’t to be though. They secured the minor premiership in the final round against a Brisbane side that would collect the premiership the following season.

But they did it at great cost. Team workhorse and spiritual leader Nathan Hindmarsh went down with a knee injury. It ruled him out of the finals.

Minor Premiers. Major Headache. Read The Sydney Morning Herald’s back page the day after that game.

First week of the finals they dispatched old rivals Manly. This is it. This is our year.

But the Cowboys would see to it that it wasn’t to be. 29-0 read the final score. Preliminary final. Again.

Brian Smith would be gone the following year.

2006 would see the arrival of Jarryd Hayne. Rookie of the year. The Eels would win nine straight to make the finals. Then hit Melbourne in Melbourne.

Glenn Morrison’s no try was a try, Bill Harrigan. The No Try call still haunts me from the elimination final.

2007, Michael Hagan’s first year. He owed us. Dear God he owed us for 2001. Fifth spot. A tough place to be, but maybe? Two straight wins. Then. Melbourne in Melbourne again. Again, Bill Harrigan with his finger on the No Try button, this time to Krisnan Inu.

Melbourne in the finals. Bloody Melbourne in the finals.

2008 came and went. It took Michael Hagan with it.

Daniel Anderson arrived. For half the 2009 season we were also rans. Until he handed the keys to Jarryd Hayne.

Those seven weeks likely will never be matched. Speed, skill, strength, power, agility. Hayne was unstoppable.

Round 26, finals secured, up against the minor premiers St George Illawarra Dragons. Coached by Wayne Bennett. They won 22-0. But Anderson out-coached the super coach.

No game plan, no secrets shown. The following week they’d do it all again and the Eels would win. Hayne danced circles around them

The Titans knocked off in the minor semi-final.

Then came the Bulldogs. Traditional rivals. Revenge for 1998. This time there was no Paul Carige inflicted madness. No Daryl Halligan conversion to haunt us.

A Mortimer scored, but this time against Canterbury. The game was won, grand final here we come.

Melbourne again. They started better than us. Then we clicked into gear. Eric Grothe Junior hit the scoresheet. Then Fuifui was too hard to stop.

Game on. But it wasn’t to be. Short again. Melbourne again.

gettyimages-91425216.jpg?w=1024

Ando was gone in 2010. Cayless retired. Hindmarsh and Burt the only ones left from the baby Eels. Their careers entering a twilight.

In came Stephen Kearney. 15th place and then a wooden spoon saw him out the door. 2012, Hindmarsh and Burt retired.

2013 Ricky Stuart signed on as an Eel for life.

Turns out “for life” meant 12 months.

Brad Arthur. Rookie coach. Head coach. Eels man born and bred.

2014 equal eighth but for and against meant 10th. Jarryd Hayne a second Dally M. 

“Here we go” we thought. We’re building to something. Corey Norman, Nathan Peats, Will Hopoate, Anthony Watmough all joined.

Jarryd Hayne left. Off to the NFL to chase a dream. Another missed finals series. The years racking up since 2009.

Kieran Foran came and went.

The 2016 salary cap scandal hit hard. Enough wins to play finals. Not enough points though. Another wasted year. Players leave. Peats to the Titans, Junior Paulo to Canberra. Watmough retires.

2017. Not much is expected. It’s a bit of a rag tag group. Beau Scott is there for one final year. We’ve pinched an Eels junior by the name of Mitchell Moses. Clint Gutherson and Bevan French are dueling for the fullback spot. 

Top four. Well that was unexpected. First finals series in nearly a decade. 

First week of finals. Melbourne in Melbourne. Who in hell did we piss off? Melbourne win again. Next week, the Cowboys deliver another loss. Season over.

Better luck next year, right?

No. Terrible luck next year. Jarryd Hayne returns. The prodigal son. Plays half the season, tops the try tally. Semi Radradra isn’t there. We’re last. Football review ordered. 

Arthur survives. 

We’re told we’re mid-table in 2019. Will be lucky to make the eight. By the end of the year we’re fifth. The revival begins. Moses wins the Dally M halfback of the year award. Junior Paulo returns and adds some punch. 

Blake Ferguson joins. He knows how to win. And a bloke by the name of Maika Sivo shows us what it’s like to have a wrecking ball on the wing again.

We’re flying again.

Finals week one. Elimination. Do or die, there is no try. Brisbane in Parramatta. Some revenge for the late 90s will be sweet.

We do more than that. 58-0. Brisbane’s worst ever loss. It’s a match that will never be forgotten.

69bd5cceba059462fc085d0a35e124e4.jpg?w=1024

The following week. Guess what. Yep, that’s right. Melbourne in Melbourne. They blow us out of the water. They know finals football. We don’t. Our intensity isn’t there. Our defence is non-existent.

2020 arrives. We win our first two games. A pandemic shuts down the season. We become a Premiership favourite. How? I don’t know. 

The season resumes. We win our next three. 5-0 for the first time since 1986. You know what happened in ‘86.

But this isn’t ‘86. There is no Ray Price or Mick Cronin. No Steve Ella or Eric Grothe Senior. No Brett Kenny or Peter Sterling.

Hopefully, in the years to come we’re discussing Moses and Brown. Sivo and Jennings. Mahoney and Junior. 

Round six. Against the champion Roosters, looking to be the first team since the ‘81-’83 Eels to complete a threepeat.

We’re good. They’re better. They’re professional. They win. But we’re installed as second premiership favourites.

You’ll excuse me if I’m a little skeptical of that tag. I’ve seen this movie before and it usually ends in heartbreak. Usually at the hands of Melbourne.

Until we win that elusive fifth premiership, that nagging sense of doubt will always be at the back of my mind.

But, in a way, I welcome the premiership heavyweights tag. It brings hope. And it’s something I haven’t heard said about Parramatta in a long time.

Because without hope, us Eels fans have nothing. Where’s the joy in turning up every season and waiting for your side to lose? Titans fans. Broncos fans. Dragons fans. We see you. We were there for seven years. It ain’t fun. It ain’t pretty.

So I’m going to watch this season in hope. With my guts constantly twisted in knots, too scared to truly believe we have a shot of winning the big one. It’s never been done in my lifetime. 

In fact the last time that trophy was hoisted by Ray Price I was nearly a decade from being born. Now I have my own son. He’ll be an Eels man. He won’t have a choice. But I hope he’s not waiting as long as I have for that Premiership. 

So I hope that on October 25 it’s Clint Gutherson lifting the Provan-Summons trophy. That we’re allowed to celebrate in Parramatta Leagues and we get a parade with those PREMIERS t-shirts being sold at Peter Wynn’s Score.

But it’s just hope. There’s a long way to go, and no doubt Melbourne will be in the way again.

We have to win though. I’m sick of “There’s always next year”.

What if it’s this year?

What if?

This article originally appeared on The Rugby League Monthly.

You need to be a member of 1Eyed Eel to add comments!

Join 1Eyed Eel

Votes: 0
Email me when people reply –

Replies

          • Greatest quote ever on winning a controversial GF - "Winners laugh, losers can please themselves."

  • Wow - that's a great summation of the Eels, well done!!

    I was there for the 80s grand finals. Can't recall much about the aftermath of 1981. I do know I was found in an unknown front garden mumbling "we did it" about 3 days later ! 
    Living through the 80s, we just got used to winning. When we lost in 1984, it seemed like an aberration - later winning everything in 1986. 
    If you had told me that was it - no more.... I don't know what I would do. 
    I know for certain that if we ever get close again, I would truck the whole team off to the nearest sports psychologist for some mental preparation because the expectation would be completely overwhelming and that's what killed us in 2001- expectation. 
    Anyway if we ever do pull it off again, a couple of mates and I have vowed to go straight to the local tattooist for an Eels tat, which would look completely rediculous on an older gent like myself ! 
    On a side note, I had a dream last night we played the Panthers in the GF this year. I won't elaborate....
    In all likelihood if we ever pull off the impossible I'd probably just sit there like Andy Dufresne on the roof in the Shawshank Redemption with an satisfied inner glow. 

    • I remember the morning of the 2001 Grand Final! I woke up feeling fantastic! My housemates asked me why I looked so up and about and I told them that I had a dream that Parra won the Grand Final!

      It was so vivid! I was in no doubt!

      My housemates, being the gamblers they were, immediately asked me who scored first try? Steve Simpson was my answer...no....wait, he scored second. Bill Peden scores first try. 

      They then asked me who scored last try? Brett Hodgson I confidently answered!

      They cleaned up at the TAB that day. The only thing I got wrong was the result of the game :-(

  • Excellent read Super. 

  • Great read Super, terrific article. 

    I grew up watching the 80s teams and fell in love with the spirit of those teams. I remember watching the 81' grand final on a black & white TV at the time, as a young lad with long straight hair. A Sterlo lookalike We just seemed to be winners, then. 

    Geees, it's been a rough since 1986, punctuated by a soft underbelly, when it counts. So, I'm not going to be anything but cautiously optimistic either...No sane person could be otherwise.

    • Very good read super .i have been right through the ups and plenty of downs following the Eels the highs and lows .my  kids have seen the Eels holding the trophy high also and a  lot of the low points as well .but the ones I feel for is my grandkids as we have indoctrinated all of them as Eels fans .The eldest being 25 down to 8 yr old .i think at last count it was 10 or 11 lost count I think . All I hope for is the way these and the rest of the Eels fans that have not experienced the real highs of winning the Grand final .I pray that the big fella up there let's you all feel what it's like .Dare we dream once again .because it sure is a great feeling when it happens.Some say better than Sex .but being of the vintage Brigade I don't recall to much of that .But I'll never forget the thrill of the Eels holding the trophy high .as I said Dare we DREAM once again

    • HOE bro wheres the game day preview? looking forward to it as always mate.

       

  • I go back to when the Eels played South Africa ,and I think it was a Thursday.  Fen Ford scored 4 & Ken Thornett came on at half time on the wing and also based 4 tries

    Have watched so many games of my favourite team

  • Great read Super - very emotional....

    So many memories came flooding back - great memories and some nightmares.

    My best memory was winning the 86 GF vs the Doggies. My whole family including aunties and uncles got together for GFs and this one was special cause my brother and a few uncles were bulldogs fans and only me and my dad followed the Eels. The tension of that game, the bulldogs battering our line for the entire second half and Parra holding firm - I couldn't believe it when we won. The tears poured, not only mine but my brothers. I felt really bad for him although he showed no such sympathy for me in 84.

    The worst memory, was being there to witness us losing the 98 major qualifying semi vs the dogs. How the hell we lost that game after being up 18-2 with less than 10 to go, I'll never know. To make matters worse I had a torn miniscus injury and my right leg locked up in my seat, I couldn't get up or walk. I was basically carried down the stairs at the SFS by my brother whilst wearing my eels jersey and my brother wore a bulldogs jersey. The bus ride home was the longest and most painful I've experienced surrounded by doggies fans giving to the few Parra fans on that bus.

    Another traumatising memory was 2009 GF vs the STORM. We should've won that game with the momentum we had - that Fui non strip was a ridiculous decision and killed off our momentum and the comeback.

  • Great write up.  This same story goes through my head at least twice a year. 
    the dam cheating storm! 

This reply was deleted.

More stuff to read

Poppa replied to Nitram's discussion A look back at Darwin
"I would not have known but someone pointed out that our record was pretty good for the game the following week.....i.e. for all the positives I think the game is worthwhile. with the clincher being the sponsorship.....I am not sure if it is widely…"
40 minutes ago
BEM replied to Axel's discussion Sivo impressing Arthur but Eels recall still on hold
"A fit and firing Sivo is miles ahead of any other winger we have at the club.
 Let's hope he gets back ro his damaging best."
48 minutes ago
Angry Eel replied to Cʜɪᴇғ -'s discussion Bushie's [BA] to 5 signings?
"Bang on Al"
1 hour ago
Angry Eel replied to Cʜɪᴇғ -'s discussion Bushie's [BA] to 5 signings?
"Totally agree with you here Grunta but I'm not sure how much of that is on BA? As other people have mentioned other clubs have talented and fast outside backs coming out of their arse and look at what BA has to work with. In the last 20 years I can…"
1 hour ago
More…